190.6
All right. Time for me to get serious again. I think I’m going to change my plan of attack however. Since I seem to be getting tripped up with the number of calories, I think I’m going back to what I did when I started this. I’m not going to worry about the number for awhile, just go back to eating better–less refined foods and more fresh, natural foods. I did that in the beginning and it worked. I’ll give that a try again.
191.4
I appreciate everyone’s comments from yesterday, but my motivation isn’t attached to what number pops up in the morning. It’s tied to the fact that I’ve been extremely hungry lately and have no will power to say ‘no’. I don’t know what it is. And I’ve explained in the past why it’s important to me that I weigh everyday. While it may be a motivation slacker for some of you, for me, it’s the opposite. I have to do it everyday to keep me responsible for what I stick in my mouth. I know that if I weighed once a week that I would eat and eat until a day or two before weigh in and panic, starving myself until weigh-in day, just to start all over again the day after. Plus, if I go up a little bit one day, I know that it’s not always directly related to what I ate or how much I exercised. But, if I were to be good all week, weigh in and not have lost or *gasp* gained, I would lose it all together and give up. This is what works for me and, while I’m here for help and appreciate all the suggestions, I’d also appreciate a little respect for me doing what I need to.
Here are some articles I found promoting daily weigh-ins. A couple are blogs, but they all quote studies I read about. The last one, I think, is the article I read a while back (on msn.com) about how people that weigh-in daily tend to lose more weight and keep it off better than those that weigh weekly. I’m sure I can find more articles if they’re needed.
http://www.time-to-get-fit.com/2006/05/daily-or-weekly-weigh-ins/
http://www.bodyfatguide.com/WhyWeighYourself.html
http://www.medicinenet.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=76856
Yesterday 189.6
Today 190.0
I’m losing my motivation again. I need to get focused. I’m making my goal for the week just to make it an entire week without cheating. All I did this last weekend was eat, I swear! Felt so digusted. I really just want to get to that 182 mark, I just don’t see it happening. Ugh. Maybe it’s time to start my list of motivations.
1. Weigh 190 vs 232.
2. Am in a size 18 vs 24.
3. Can hoof it up the hills to and from work without thinking I’m going to die or that I need a break.
4. There’s a lot more space between the steering wheel and my gut in the car.
5. Don’t have to push the table away when sitting in the breakfast nook anymore.
That’s enough for today. I just need… something. I don’t even know what. Just something.
Was in training yesterday for work so I didn’t get a lot of time to log in and record my weight, but it’s all good. :p
Yesterday 189.6
Today 188.6
Back below the 190s, which was my main goal for the week. Now, if I could just stop taking those huge backwards steps. Tired of tripping over the scales all the time. I changed mini goal to 182. I figured that would be 50 lbs lost and would be a good place to reevaluate where I want to be in the long term.
Oooh, and guess who finally contacted me yesterday after more than a week… my so called “friend” from Texas. Yeah. Talked to me for about three minutes on Yahoo Messenger, which is about all that I could handle anyway. Just makes me mad. He left for a fishing trip a day or two after I flew out of San Antonio and he was supposed to call me when he got back and tell me how it went. Well, lets see, I know that he came back on Sunday because the people he went with… well, they’ve all got jobs and had to get back to them Monday. And what day was it again yesterday? Thursday? Hmm, call me crazy, but I like it when my friends as least try and do what I ask of them. An IM on Thursday is not a call on Sunday, now is it? Boys are stoooopid. I’m over the whole “wanting him” thing (well, mostly over it and I’d take him back in a heartbeat, if he’d ask. Yeah, I’m stooopid too, I know) and I’m more than willing to be just friends, but I think he and I have different ideas of what that entails.
190.8
Whoo-hoo! *lol* Definitely water weight, but I don’t remember peeing that much yesterday. :p
And I can walk without wanting to scream today. Need to see if I can get some running in tonight.
http://www.cnn.com/2007/LIVING/personal/06/29/in.your.head/index.html
I’m a D quadrant person. Definitely a D. What type are all of you?
193.0
Okay, that has got to be premenstrual. There is no way I ate 10,000+ calories yesterday. I ate alot, but… damn! Not that much.
Think I’m going to wait another day or two before I go running again. I am so sore that I can barely walk… I’m waddling. Very cute look, oh yeah. I didn’t even bring my tennis shoes today. I think I’m just going to stay off my feet as much as I can today, do some stretches, but any physical activity involving the legs must wait. The calves and quads won… damn them!
190.0
Not bad. I’d expected a little more gone this morning, but trust me, after going up the last few days, anything down is good.
Oh, you will never believe what I did yesterday… I went running. Me! Shocking, I know. I’m the peson that always said I would only run if being chased, but even while I was saying that, I was secretly always wanting to be a runner. I’ve tried jogging in the past, but couldn’t even make it to the end of the block. I never understood that. Been walking for years and after losing this much weight, you’d think I’d be able to take things to the next level. Well, I found an article last week about how to train to start running, and it sounded very doable to me. You do it in 4/2 increments… 4 minutes walking with 2 minutes running, in 5 segments every other day. Then next week it 3/3… 3 minutes walking with 3 minutes running. I also read in the same article that said that some people who find themselves starting running programs and then find themselves to tired after a short distance are usually running too fast too soon, that you shouldn’t go any faster than a fast walk, so I made sure that I kept telling myself to slow down, and oddly enough I could run each of those 2 minutes segments without wanting to die. I’m so proud of myself. Of course, my calves and quads are wondering what in the hell that was all about and are complaining about it now, but they’re going to be more angry tomorrow when I do it again. HA!
190.6
Not as bad as I would’ve figured after yesterday’s oink fest. I can live with 0.4 lb up. I’m only a day or two out from that very special time of the month, so it’s only going to get worse before it gets better.
190.0
Yeah, yeah, yeah. I know. Yesterday was a BAD day for eating. I just kinda let go and lost control. Then today I knew was going to be bad because it was the annual Kinze picnic. I love the picnic. So much fun and so much crap to eat… all of which is free. Free cookies, nachos, ice cream, pop, snow cones, etc. Then there’s the big meal, which I don’t really care for other than the potatos. Love me taters… which is why I just can’t get the hang of the low carb diets. Anyway, I guess that I didn’t really eat that much today when you factor in all the walking you do there, but nothing that I ate was at all good me. Well, it’s only once a year and I will be back on track tomorrow. Gotta get lower than Mom just to piss her off. *heehee* Aren’t I the best daughter? :p My dad told me the other day, that he knew that I wouldn’t hear it anywhere else, but that he was very proud of me and that I was doing a great job in the weight loss department. Made me so happy. I know too that he’s excited that I’m doing it the right way this time… no starving, no purging, no laxatives, no overexercising. My dad’s always been concerned about the purging part. This is the kinda person my mom is… when I admitted to them a couple of years back that I was struggling with bulemia, her exact words were “well, must not be hurting you too much… you’re not pencil thin yet.” Gotta love my mom.
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