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Oh, and I put up some VERY scary pictures of me in work-out clothes at about 240 lbs.  *shudders* 

But before I go into that, I want to say something regarding all the comments the other day.  The situation resulted, I believe, from people (myself included) forgetting that because we have a certain tone or inflection in our head when we write, depending on how the other person reads it or even depending on their mood, it may not be interpreted in the way we intend.  This is a problem with using the whole electronic system to communicate.  That and I was, I admit it, in a piss poor mood the other day, in case you didn’t notice.

On a happier note, I feel motivated again.  I don’t know what did it, what exactly it was that kicked me in the rear, but I’m not going to knock it.  I remembered that the “average” American woman is 163 lbs and I was looking at my Yahoo profile and thought “man, I really want to change that to average”.  So, I’ve decided that I’m shooting for 179 by 8/31 and 169 by 9/30.  Hopefully then I can hit “average” by my son’s b-day on the 15th.  That’s roughly 10 lbs. a month, or 2.5 lbs a week.  Totally doable, I think.  Means hard work and no more crap foods (well, maybe occasionally), but I’m going to get this done, damn it!  I’m shooting for Christmas as the date to hit my goal of 152.  It’s gonna be close, but I’m crossing my fingers and buckling down.  Should’ve seen me out there busting my butt on my noon walk.  All sweaty and puffing along.  Been awhile since I pushed myself that hard, but it felt good.

I did have something to say.  The 18s that I bought for my trip were getting to that annoying place where they’re not really loose until you wear them for 5 minutes and then they don’t stay where they’re supposed to, so I resorted to wearing a belt while there and pulling the material up past the button.  That’s a real nice look.  Anyway, what I’m trying to say is that when I was there.  I bought a pair of 16s at the outlet mall in San Marcos.  I tried them on when we got back and there was about an inch keeping me from buttoning them.  I tried them on again last night for poops and giggles and guess what… I got them fastened.  They’re tight and there that nice little tummy fat roll over the top, but hell, I got my butt into a 16!  Whoo-hoo!  Another 5-10 lbs and I should be in them for real.  And we all know what a 16 equals… shopping in the regular girls’ section!  God, I’ve been waiting for this day for 14 years.  Wish me luck.

Yup, I changed my goal weight.  I was shooting for 150 lbs because the lowest I can ever remember being was when I was 17 and I starved myself down from 195 to 153.  But for some reason, I got it into my head that I want to be 135 lbs.  Where this came from, I have NO idea.  Just popped into my head.  That would be like a 97 lbs weight loss.  Wow.  Right now, I reserve the right to change this back at any minute without notice.  Ha!