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185.6

Whoohoo!  *lol*  I just may hit that 179 by the end of the month.  Supposedly, my mom and I are going to ‘race’ starting Monday to see who can lose 20 lbs first.  I say supposedly because I know her.  She’ll do it about 2 weeks and then decide that she doesn’t want to do it anymore when it looks at all like she might not win.  I’ve been trying to find someone to race me and knowing how competitive my mom is with me, I thought that she would be a logical choice.  We’ll just have wait and see I guess.

188.2

I tried not getting weighed today, thought I’d give the once a week thing a try.  Well, I usually weigh in at 5:30 in the morning… I made it all the way to 5:40.  Yeah, that’s sad.  :p  It’s a sad, scary addiction.  Need weighaholics anonymous. 

Yesterday 188.2

Today 189.2

Ah, another weekend of stuffing my face.  *banging head on desk*  I’ve gotta find something else to do on the weekend that doesn’t involve me eating.

187.2

Oh well, I’m still in the 180s so I can live with it.  Hopefully, it’ll be gone again by tomorrow morning. 

I’m so suffering right now.  Went for a 4 mile walk.  Don’t mind the distance… 4 miles is pretty average for me anymore.  What I didn’t like was the 105 heat index.  Didn’t realize it was all that hot until I hit the pavement in the country and thought, ‘wow, it’s kinda warm out here’.  You shoulda seen my shorts when I got home.  They were so wet, it looked like I went swimming in them.  I think my face got a little sunburnt too and I ripped a blister off of one of my toes.  I was wearing the shoes I bought in San Antonio–the ones, that like the idiot that I am, I took right out of the box and wore them to SeaWorld for the day.  I’ve had blisters on my 4th and 5th toes on my right foot since them.  Well, now that I ripped the one off, I’ve only got the one on my 5th toe now.  How’s that for looking at the silver lining?!  *lol* 

185.8

New low weight.  So happy.  Meant to post this earlier, but everytime I logged onto the internet, I’d totally forget. 

187

Um, don’t really have anything else to say this morning.  That would require thought and I’m just too tired for that. 

189.0

Bluh.

190.6

All right.  Time for me to get serious again.  I think I’m going to change my plan of attack however.  Since I seem to be getting tripped up with the number of calories, I think I’m going back to what I did when I started this.  I’m not going to worry about the number for awhile, just go back to eating better–less refined foods and more fresh, natural foods.  I did that in the beginning and it worked.  I’ll give that a try again.

191.4

I appreciate everyone’s comments from yesterday, but my motivation isn’t attached to what number pops up in the morning.  It’s tied to the fact that I’ve been extremely hungry lately and have no will power to say ‘no’.  I don’t know what it is.  And I’ve explained in the past why it’s important to me that I weigh everyday.  While it may be a motivation slacker for some of you, for me, it’s the opposite.  I have to do it everyday to keep me responsible for what I stick in my mouth.  I know that if I weighed once a week that I would eat and eat until a day or two before weigh in and panic, starving myself until weigh-in day, just to start all over again the day after.  Plus, if I go up a little bit one day, I know that it’s not always directly related to what I ate or how much I exercised.  But, if I were to be good all week, weigh in and not have lost or *gasp* gained, I would lose it all together and give up.  This is what works for me and, while I’m here for help and appreciate all the suggestions, I’d also appreciate a little respect for me doing what I need to. 

Here are some articles I found promoting daily weigh-ins.  A couple are blogs, but they all quote studies I read about.  The last one, I think, is the article I read a while back (on msn.com) about how people that weigh-in daily tend to lose more weight and keep it off better than those that weigh weekly.  I’m sure I can find more articles if they’re needed.

http://www.healthstatus.com/articles/Annals_of_Behavioral_Medicine_Daily_Weigh_Ins_help_dieters_lose.html

http://www.time-to-get-fit.com/2006/05/daily-or-weekly-weigh-ins/

http://www.bodyfatguide.com/WhyWeighYourself.html

http://editor.mydietblogger.com/news-views-and-boos-for-dieters/dieters-who-weigh-in-daily-seem-to-be-the-biggest-losers/

http://www.medicinenet.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=76856

http://www.northjersey.com/page.php?qstr=eXJpcnk3ZjczN2Y3dnFlZUVFeXk1NDImZmdiZWw3Zjd2cWVlRUV5eTY4Mjk0MjgmeXJpcnk3ZjcxN2Y3dnFlZUVFeXk1

Yesterday 189.6

Today 190.0

I’m losing my motivation again.  I need to get focused.  I’m making my goal for the week just to make it an entire week without cheating.  All I did this last weekend was eat, I swear!  Felt so digusted.  I really just want to get to that 182 mark, I just don’t see it happening.  Ugh.  Maybe it’s time to start my list of motivations. 

1.  Weigh 190 vs 232.

2.  Am in a size 18 vs 24.

3.  Can hoof it up the hills to and from work without thinking I’m going to die or that I need a break.

4.  There’s a lot more space between the steering wheel and my gut in the car.

5.  Don’t have to push the table away when sitting in the breakfast nook anymore.

That’s enough for today.  I just need… something.  I don’t even know what.  Just something.