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185.6

Whoohoo!  *lol*  I just may hit that 179 by the end of the month.  Supposedly, my mom and I are going to ‘race’ starting Monday to see who can lose 20 lbs first.  I say supposedly because I know her.  She’ll do it about 2 weeks and then decide that she doesn’t want to do it anymore when it looks at all like she might not win.  I’ve been trying to find someone to race me and knowing how competitive my mom is with me, I thought that she would be a logical choice.  We’ll just have wait and see I guess.

Oh, and I put up some VERY scary pictures of me in work-out clothes at about 240 lbs.  *shudders* 

188.2

I tried not getting weighed today, thought I’d give the once a week thing a try.  Well, I usually weigh in at 5:30 in the morning… I made it all the way to 5:40.  Yeah, that’s sad.  :p  It’s a sad, scary addiction.  Need weighaholics anonymous. 

http://health.yahoo.com/experts/rockertraining/5130/stay-off-the-scale

*lol*  Here’s the other side of the on-the-scales/off-the-scales theory. 

Yesterday 188.2

Today 189.2

Ah, another weekend of stuffing my face.  *banging head on desk*  I’ve gotta find something else to do on the weekend that doesn’t involve me eating.

187.2

Oh well, I’m still in the 180s so I can live with it.  Hopefully, it’ll be gone again by tomorrow morning. 

I’m so suffering right now.  Went for a 4 mile walk.  Don’t mind the distance… 4 miles is pretty average for me anymore.  What I didn’t like was the 105 heat index.  Didn’t realize it was all that hot until I hit the pavement in the country and thought, ‘wow, it’s kinda warm out here’.  You shoulda seen my shorts when I got home.  They were so wet, it looked like I went swimming in them.  I think my face got a little sunburnt too and I ripped a blister off of one of my toes.  I was wearing the shoes I bought in San Antonio–the ones, that like the idiot that I am, I took right out of the box and wore them to SeaWorld for the day.  I’ve had blisters on my 4th and 5th toes on my right foot since them.  Well, now that I ripped the one off, I’ve only got the one on my 5th toe now.  How’s that for looking at the silver lining?!  *lol* 

185.8

New low weight.  So happy.  Meant to post this earlier, but everytime I logged onto the internet, I’d totally forget. 

187

Um, don’t really have anything else to say this morning.  That would require thought and I’m just too tired for that. 

But before I go into that, I want to say something regarding all the comments the other day.  The situation resulted, I believe, from people (myself included) forgetting that because we have a certain tone or inflection in our head when we write, depending on how the other person reads it or even depending on their mood, it may not be interpreted in the way we intend.  This is a problem with using the whole electronic system to communicate.  That and I was, I admit it, in a piss poor mood the other day, in case you didn’t notice.

On a happier note, I feel motivated again.  I don’t know what did it, what exactly it was that kicked me in the rear, but I’m not going to knock it.  I remembered that the “average” American woman is 163 lbs and I was looking at my Yahoo profile and thought “man, I really want to change that to average”.  So, I’ve decided that I’m shooting for 179 by 8/31 and 169 by 9/30.  Hopefully then I can hit “average” by my son’s b-day on the 15th.  That’s roughly 10 lbs. a month, or 2.5 lbs a week.  Totally doable, I think.  Means hard work and no more crap foods (well, maybe occasionally), but I’m going to get this done, damn it!  I’m shooting for Christmas as the date to hit my goal of 152.  It’s gonna be close, but I’m crossing my fingers and buckling down.  Should’ve seen me out there busting my butt on my noon walk.  All sweaty and puffing along.  Been awhile since I pushed myself that hard, but it felt good.

189.0

Bluh.