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 192.4!

Happy Dance!  Yeehaw!  That puts me at exactly 40 lbs. lost.  Got a wittle bitty white star there now!  Ah, it’s so cute.  *lol*  Sorry, at a happy place right this second.  3 to go and, what, 12 days to do it in.  Yeah, Baby! 

I had to edit this post.  I’m actually 0.4 lbs. less than I thought.  So much better!  It’s amazing how a tiny little bit lost raises your motivation and enthusiasm tons.  So, I only need 2.5 lbs. gone before Texas (well, 2.6 since my scales measure in 0.2 increments).  I’d take more, but that’s all it’ll take for me to be happy. 

Went for a nice hour-long walk with my parents last night.  My mom’s freaking out because I’m only like 7 lbs. away from her weight and DEAR GOD should I have the audacity to attempt to weigh less than she does.  As soon as she heard I was under 200, she started freaking out and dieting again.  My mom has issues.  Everything I do to try and better myself, she takes as a personal attack and a challenge.  It’s been like that my entire life.  I’ve learned to look past it, but oooh, I let her have it the other day.  We’re getting ready to have a garage sale next weekend (bye-bye fat clothes, whoo hoo) and she had some clothes that I was looking through.  Well, she started in on how this one shirt should fit me because it didn’t fit her any more.  Oh, that set me off.  You have to see my mom, but she and I are built totally different.  I have curves… I have more curves than I should, but they’re still curves.  My mom… doesn’t.  She has no butt or boobs.  She carries all of her weight in her gut, so while there’s a 7 lbs. difference, my waist and sizes are smaller than her’s.  It just totally pissed me off.  So, anyway, that’s the stuff I’m dealing with.  I have no support system whatsoever.  Thank God for you guys! 

193.4

How’s that for a period week loss?  *lol*  Makes me happy.  What makes me happier is that I booked my flight last night!  Yea!  I leave for Texas 07/11 and fly back on 07/17.  A whole week in a new place with an old(ish) friend.  So excited!  Can you tell?  For one thing, I’ve never flown before, so that’ll be a whole new experience for me.  I have to get a connecting flight in Denver, which, while not exactly on the way to San Antonio, is more in the path than my other option… Minneapolis.  How is Minneapolis even an option when flying from Des Moines to San Antonio?  Maybe my map’s really off, but that seems like the direct opposite direction to me?  :p  Now, to lose those last 4 lbs. before the 11th!  Help me out, guys!

194.4

I can live with a 0.2 lbs. loss during a time when I’m usually gaining like mad.  I’ll take whatever I can get.

Yup, I changed my goal weight.  I was shooting for 150 lbs because the lowest I can ever remember being was when I was 17 and I starved myself down from 195 to 153.  But for some reason, I got it into my head that I want to be 135 lbs.  Where this came from, I have NO idea.  Just popped into my head.  That would be like a 97 lbs weight loss.  Wow.  Right now, I reserve the right to change this back at any minute without notice.  Ha!

194.6

That puts me up 0.8 since yesterday, but I know why that is.  I can sum it up in a very familiar phase… it’s that time of the month.  Whoo-hoo!  Every woman’s favorite time in general and that goes double for any woman trying to lose weight, doesn’t it?  Blah.  I’m not going to let it get me down though.  Usually I’m up 3 around this time, so I’ll take that 0.8!  I always look at it this way anyhow… I want it to get here so I can get it over with so I can get back to losing weight.   

Well, back to the stuff…

193.8

Finally a new low weight.  Haven’t been under 200 since I was 17, so I keep forgetting that I’m in the 190s.  That leaves me with 4 lbs. to lose before July 9th.  That’s when I leave for Texas (hopefully) to see my friend.  Whoo-hoo!  Now, if I could just get that ticket bought, I’d feel so much better.

I had just started a blog over at weightwatchen.com and that all went away this weekend.  Went to post and it wouldn’t come up.  Checked back later and there was a message from Roni saying that all data had been lost.  That’s just horrible.  I feel bad for everyone.  I’d only been posting there for a week or so.  I didn’t lose that much information luckily.  So, I came looking for a new blog site.  Found this one.